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...1 year later

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I can't believe I haven't written any more entries for an entire year. Guess life totally buldozed over me. Hell. *shudders* 
Either way, I am fine, alive, still at uni (which holds the potential of me soon becoming less fine and less alive bc uni = hellhole of endless fire). 
I hope everyone's having a really nice december. I'm not. I fucking hate almost everything about decembers. The only thing I do like is the vague sense of expectation in the air. It's like a faint smell of food baking in the oven. I like that but it's so ... undescribable and beyond grasping... kinda makes me sad a bit. That's a feeling I get a lot of during decembers. It serves to tell me that I have not uprooted that childish nostalgia out of my soul well enough. It's still there, pushing buds and growing roots. 
One day, perhaps, I'll go at it with herbicide. 

Cheers!
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Winter entry

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I nearly had my toes freeze off today so yeah, it is indeed winter. I hate winter. It's neat and cute and there's fluffy blankets and shit but I fucking hate freezing. I hate that tingly sensation you get after being outside for (nowadays; app a minute) too long and the cold sort of polishes off the top layer of your skin. 
I don't want to go to uni ever again.
Those few friends I have, annoy me. 
I have a ton of books waiting for me and I can't afford to read them because I'm supposed to study and I hate that, too.
Family- . Family is being family. 
Tl;dr: yes, I am alive. No, I don't know for how long I'll manage to stay so. Yes, do blame stress and weather for that. 

Kind regards,

soon-to-be human-flavoured ice-lolly
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Thought it was time I wrote another journal entry. You know, just to show a sign of life. 
Stuff has been happening all over the place and... Well, the higlights were probably: my best friend dumping uni (and me), me discovering Hannibal nbc (and a wonderful girl who shares my absolute awe for Mads Mikkelsen's hair), having clinic labs and meeting the first doctor that made me want to become like him one day (...perhaps I'll skip the vanilla hair and that funny metro/gay thing he has going on). Oh and it happened that someone actually developed something of a crush on me. That's a first. ...also, it's been 2 years and 6 months now that I've been close friends with another human, through good and bad. Personal record for a ''real life'' friendship. 
This is a shit journal entry... quite my style, isn't it. Will write a better one next time. 
Love,

me
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actually it's quite a storm outside and when i came back earlier, my feet were soaked. wither way, i've at least dealt with exams and now i think there's no chance of failing the year. good girl me. ^^ 
people still hate me and everything but that i'll deal with later. fuck people. fuck everything. this evening is just my own, to drink massive amounts of tea, watch soapy movie and not give a fuck about a thing. *dances*
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tired.
massively tired of exams, studying, people who don't love me, guys who don't want me, girls who aren't my friends anymore, guys who have never been my friends, cats who dont let me pet them, storms that aren't raging, my brain that isn't working the way it should and mostly, i'm angry at myself for being such an idiot. damn lazy unproductive messy idiot with shit for brains. actually, shit would be good. i dont think i have brain. not a working one anyway.

don't feel sorry for me, though! i've been doing that myself, intensively. every day for the last... many many years. 

Edit: It's 2nd february 2015 and all of the above is still very very true. I assume this is a bad thing. Ah, well.
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